use my love was not returned. I’m capable of loving, that alone, means a great deal. Oh, wouldn’t it be great if he loved me back？（他是我爱的人，但他对我的爱却转瞬即逝，因为我做了一些他不能忍受的事。但我知道他还是觉得我挺可爱的，我不能因为他不爱我了，就自己瞧不起自己。我能爱一个人，这一点本身就意义重大。但如果他也爱我，那不是更好吗？）

8/26/2005

It’s 4:53am. I could not sleep. I could not stand the idea that he has a girlfriend. But don’t force it. Just cure myself before I make any other choices involves revealing the deep side of heart. For now, the heart needs to be closed to be protected. How many times can I be broken -hearted?! My poor heart! It has been working for me for 31 years but I didn’t take good care of it. Think positively, act positively and things will turn out positive. It’s the power of mind. （现在是清晨4点53分。我睡不着，我没法忍受他有了